ink drips from a little dancers pen

shit.

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 19:35:48 GMT

Hellllllllo 3 years later. haha. wow.

WELLL. JUST SO YOU KNOW. In october of '05 reggie and i got engaged.

then we had problems on and off.

and we moved to my friend's house in GA, then to SOUTH CAROLINA..then we broke it off. Yep. Well more so, reggie dumped my ass. It happens. He didnt want to work shit out, whatev.

Then were suppose to be best friends, HAHA. went well for a while, and he changed..and changed..and he's not who i first met.

after we broke up, October 19th, 2007 i moved back to cali, was suppose to be a vacation. THAT NIGHTTT i met an amazing boy, caleb <3 so awesome.

it's April 7th. Next week is our 6 month anni. yeah. well see how this one goes. im keeping my fingers crossed. were taking most stuff pretty slow....didnt even say i love you til like 3 months in, haha. of course..the sex took about 3 weeks in.....whatcan i say? haha. it happens.

since its still kinda early we are just tossing around the idea of moving in. Possibly at the end of the summer if things are still going well. We might go together to portland...or split ways, i dunno.

but that's the 411/.

update.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 07:28:30 GMT

5 months.
Reg and i have been together for 5 months.
Last night we almost broke up, but not really. haha, its kinda funny actually, cause i thought he was trying to say he wanted to break up..so when i replied, he thought i wanted to break up..and damn, i dunno, miscommuications.

were still going STRONG. haha.

bahness

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 00:18:41 GMT

I dunno. i seem to still be hung up on something i left in cali.
some guy i knew id never have.
something thatll never rekindle.

after last night, after i fought with reggie, i kinda got madder, and i dunno. i love the kid and all, im just ARG. I dunno, i think its me. i dunno what to do at all, and im soo confused what to do.

more than 6 monthes later

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 16:20:11 GMT

So.
Tyler and i Broke up in October
Im single.
I moved to California.
I smoke.
All the boys that i meet always have something wrong with them.
I love my mommy.
I gotta take the GED.

Love sucks in general. haha.
Boys suck in general.

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 08:49:26 GMT

He loves me cause of who i am.
I love him cause of that reason.
He makes me so happy.
Sometimes i think i make him happier.
That extends my happiness.
Were perfect for eachother.
Life is great. And it seems so easy.
Thank you. Thank you for everything.

Everytime he says i love you, i want to cry.
Cry tears of joy.

The other night he was singing to me.
I love him.
i wanted to cry again.

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 04:42:40 GMT

he just makes me...so happy.

eeep.

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 22:53:03 GMT

and now, we are going out. wierd, isnt it?

w00t.

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 09:07:13 GMT

Tomorrow tyler wants me to go to the concert at creekside. I have to see if i can go. He said he could get me some money to go, and a ride too. how awesomely sweet is that? haha. Its sweeter than it sounds too. Oh yeah, Hmm, Brian could be there. i wonder whatever i will do about that? haha. actually, it kinda scars me really, you know. I dont know what im going to tell the kid. really. *Sigh* maybe ill find out. maybe. hopefully.

boys boys boys..trade them off.

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 08:27:43 GMT

So Brian hasnt hung out or called me in like 2 weeks. So yeah, i dont know about that kid, at all. I guess right now, i gave up on him, cause hes being all stupid and its really irratiting me! So i guess thats over with? Oh well, i guess hes loses out. I dunno, i thought we could have something, but i guess i was wrong.

But theres this one kid. Yes..someone..someone..someone. Go me? I dunno. We Got to hangout tonight, thank you nicole!! yay! She was like "lets have Tyler and Derek comeover wednsday and watch a movie!"..so we did. Well, we [all of us] watched the bad santa..then we put in some documentry, haha.
Then we took that right out, and put on Perfect Score which i watched the night before..so we were just messing around [not like that sickos] and not really watching the movie, then tyler and i started to wrestle, haha. We did that for a freaking hour, which gets you really tired. Oh yeah, Nicole and derek left when the movie started. haha.

Well, it was great cause her lil sister would randomly come in and ask the stupidest questions, and thought we were having sex. haha. It was really funny though. Then..ummm...nicole and derek came to the end of the movie, and we all just laid down and watched the end, haha. Then nicole and derek went outside really quick to let derek leave...or whateva. So tyler and i are just laying there, then nicole comes in with a random craving for am pm, then goes to the kitchen.

then were just sitting there, and he kisses me. It was soo adorible, haha. then we had to stop, as nicole comes in raving about how good relish is in tuna, haha. Then she leaves, and we kiss again, and it happens..again, haha. Then bah on him, he had to get home, haha. so yeah, i walked him outside, and..we kissed goodbye, and he left. hmmmph.

Yeah. I guess brian is out of the picture? what do you think? haha. Oh well...

Its wierd, Brian brought out the mellow part in me..tyler brings out the..happy side, and then fun side, haha. And the side that realizes she really isnt strong anymore. haha. I dont know..i have a good feeling about this. i think. ha.

backround info

Oh, haha. so you know, im not like some hoe here. haha, i met tyler over myspace..but never talked to him. Then..he unadded me. Then i went to dans house, and we just talked about music and shit. Then he told me that he wanted to go out sometime, and hed love to see me again. haha, so yeah...a few days later when i first saw him ,and he told me that, nicole called and gave him the phone. Then he added me on msn, and yeah..i got his phone number. yeeep. Then later like the next week nicole was like "lets go to dans tonight" so yeah, we did. And that night he was there, watching a movie with the other 2 guys there, haha. when nicole moved off the couch, he decided to sit next to me, so i got to set my legs on him. When dan started to play gold bond, he was like "wanna go outside?" so we went out the bathroom window [that LEADS right out to the roof] and went up there, to a car seat thing that have, and we just sat there and talked. then 2 days later was the movie night. :D. Im just..so happy.

humph.

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 06:52:03 GMT

Umm..might as well update since, forever ago. First off, i dont really have net right now, dont ask how im updating now.

Brian and i have hung out a few times, whoo. But i dont know whats happening. bah. Boys! He never called me last night to go out and hang, but of course my dad WAS awake, so oh well.

Whateva. boys are trouble, i guess. who knows whatll happen.

Fri, 28 May 2004 06:53:48 GMT

hmm. Tomorrow im suppose to hang out with brian...i haveta call him, whoo. haha, im gonna probably act stupid, agreed? very much so! heh.

My dad still being stupid. bah. Im sure hell be normal sometime. yeah. i still dont have anything to say.

antbrigades or is it d0pexsickxgurl well whatever the hell it is, shes a stupid bitter whore man! haha. Go to xvanity_core and tell her in her applications SHE SUCKS.

What I Wanna Put:

your hair looks..dull, your forehead is HUGE, and your lips are funny looking too. GOD..youre just ugly.

p.s. blurry pictures can make anyone look..decent.

too bad i cant give you a big fat NO...cause im not in this community..heh.

too bad i kinda think ill try out for the community later, and dont wanna be banned, heh. SHES A STUPID WHORE..*cough* sorry...outburst. well yeah..go be mean to her! haha.

bah.

Thu, 20 May 2004 01:29:56 GMT

brian, me. i dunno. I think, ill just...try to leave it and hope it turns to something..eventrually. Maybe...if im lucky. heh.

other news? my dad is a twat nugget. heh. and school grades are going up so i dont fail, yay.

the end.
-BReana

bah.

Mon, 17 May 2004 07:11:19 GMT

So this weekend sucked, except when i was away from my house. I didnt hang out with brian though. ill live. I finally watched donnie darko. yay.

bjork makes me relax.

Thanks kayla for taking me away!

my dad is a prick. i fought with him all weekend. bah.

Wed, 12 May 2004 00:21:07 GMT

Hes 22, Im 17. Scandal? hardly.

I dont know where itll lead, i doubt there will be any leading, but god i hope there is, hed be perfect.

the end.

Fri, 07 May 2004 03:52:17 GMT

THIS is why BRian rocks:

[my name here], Votre une jolie fille, je veux embrasser vos lèvres douces doucement

translation (loosly):

[my name here], Your a pretty girl, I want to kiss [or embrace] your soft lips

my god. the end.

hmm.

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 09:10:52 GMT

Battle of the bands. too many screamo wanna bes. haha.

Miskonduct..poor danny..mike CAN NOT SING..i mean..CAN not. it was pathedic.

The Search..the band that jake is in..god i REALLY need to have an actually conversation with that kid..haha. it was cooot, he had stubble of a goatee..reminded me of a wierd java guy, whoo. yeah..got a ride from him home, dammit, kayla and i could of gone to dennys..grr. oh well,ill live.

so yeah. I really dont have any..thing..interesting.

today i danced in the rain. yes, i put on some clothes..ran outside with me friend, and busted out.

oh, back to BOTB..the concert..haha, Donna and the Skanksters rocked..like whoa. How often do you get to skank man! really now. The winners were 13..how coot man, i swear! Joe Pony..whoo whee. after the whole thing ended the little poofy haired kid was standing there and talking to people (from the winning band) and i got him to comeover to give him a pin, haha. i was just like "you should email me kid"...he probably thought i was hitting on him, haha. some random freaky girl..whoo.

i need my freaking orange and red hair dye, itll make me happy.

the end.

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 20:50:09 GMT

Welcome to my world of un-updateness. bad me.

Its wierd to know ihave this journal..and no one knows who i am..kinda. Hell..i could be your neighbor. i could be going to YOUR school. i think i should also begin to edit names dammit.

i have had an urge to draw..only if i was decent enough to give an effort. I have nothing that says "DRAW ME"..

haha, i had a pathedic attempt to draw my moms senior pic..after i got the eye and nose..it was dead..but it did look good at first.

In my shallow news..i went shopping.

i dont feel like getting all indepth. umm.. yeah. battle of the bands tonight. i haveta support those good old bands..and..i might get to talk to jake, whichll kick ass.

the end.

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 18:43:51 GMT

i was hanging out with some friends during lunch, and some other kids, some chick, and kid.

my friend. asked me if i had a date to the prom, and i was like
"no, cause im a loser like that."

then "KID" was like "ill go with you"
"ill think about it"
(everyone there) oww, thats mean.
kid.-"ill pay for the tickets and all"
me-"hell, ill go with ya"

haha, whoo. he didnt ask me, he volunteered. and then my friend was like "OMG, i know he totally digged you"..and my other friend was like "OMG, i knew he totally has a crush on you" haha, ok..thats cool.
i guess..thats all.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 07:11:00 GMT

i wish i had live batteries for my cam, so i can make a cool icon.

i love my new cam.

anywho, whats up in loserville you ask (you being absolutely nothing)

my ear hurts (darth is swollen)
my septum is being awesome, i change the ring, so meanness about it (i guess my nose hated the huge ring)
i might have a bacterial infection from a spider bite, yummy.

wow, its like 11 and im not tired, of course i sleep alot today, i sure am hungry.

so im pretty much over That One Kid... haha.

i have no date for prom...should i ask My hill friend.. my god, thatd be awkward like whoa.

haha, i "met" KID, then he talks to sara "your friend wants me, huh" haha, kids these days.

umm, what else? i think thats all. umm..yeah. ok, the end.

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 22:42:35 GMT

dear everyone.

i am bored. i dont think i even need this. i want this journal to be for random friends of mine, that dont know me personally, so i get non-judgemental opinions!

that is all.